to be back

Has it been a whole year? Maybe more? Who really knows (I mean, yes I realize all I have to do is check the last post, but here we are). Between life and work and a huge move across the country, I realized that the things that matter to me got lost. This is what happens when you get caught up in the day to day, and forget to take the moments in time to do things that feel really really good to you. So, let's rewind a bit. 

As mentioned above, life has been really hard and fast the past year and a half. Pretty much all of 2022 was taken in shifting the school I work at (The Ayurvedic Institute), my husband and I, my whole family, and our company literally across country from Albuquerque to Asheville. I say this to mean that we've been traveling back and forth pretty much every 2-3 weeks, finally landing mid-July to feel somewhat settled. 

With all of that craziness of course, comes work and family and other just things that you have to do to maintain life. Eating, making sure you're drinking enough water, getting some movement into the day, doing your best to not get stressed out and keep certain levels of sanity. And while doing a little reflection, I realized my entire existence went into pure survival mode. Did I meet my goals at work? Did I meet my goals for the year? Did I get the water ounces in that I promised myself I would. Did I at least practice some yoga and pranayama. And the answer was flat out no. I didn't. That's what being in survival mode will do to you. You're doing everything that you can to just stay above water. 

I say all of this for this reason right here. I was reflecting a week or two ago on life, as one does. And I realized that those times in our life are equally as important as the ones where you feel like you are on top of it all. When I say this year has been a flood, I really mean it. Gulping for water, just literally trying to survive. And what was it all for?

For this moment right here. For me to be able to have that moment in time where I think back and yes, slightly shudder at everything that happened, but also realizing that the beautiful moments aren't always sparkly. They are also filled with tears and rage and annoyances. 

Like the veins of a leaf; its all those little teeny tiny ones that fill and support the big one that runs down the central channel. In our life, it's all of those teeny tiny moments that make up the whole, and are definitely equally as amazing. 

So, why today. Why do I feel the need to resurrect my blog from what feels like the after life today? Because I am just feeling extra grateful for all of the opportunities in my life that have brought me here today. That have filled me in the best and most awful ways to bring me here and make me who I am. 

Today, let's take a minute to honor all of who we are. Here's to finding gratitude for the moments that have absolutely sucked that lead to the moments that were the sweetest they could be. 

I hope today as you take time to be with your family and loved ones, you find gratitude for you. 

And one last thing: thanks for being here. And for the revitalization of this tiny corner of the internet that I like to share with you. Until next time--much love from me to you.